Sky,

If Alaska's HR could read your posts on how bad you want to work at Alaska I bet they would offer you a job on the spot.

I too wore the Alaska rose colored glasses. 4 years in the bush and I also worked at QX. Believe me, the honeymoon doesn't last long. I wouldn't beat yourself up. My advice: Get on with Aloha, and after the merger you can bid up to Seattle.