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Yow av8r
You might be joking but all those things suck; plus the other problems that werent mentioned. I have trouble explaining to people why, thats part of the reason I asked this question. I have trouble really deciding on one reason. however with every reason i see people judging me.
although i have trouble explaining it i will try...
Out of those reasons one of the strongest reasons is the proficiency checks. Early into the career, I have trouble remembering all the basics, nvm all the stuff i still need to learn. Honestly I just come to terms that I cant make it in this career. I am tired of people saying things like well you should never give up on your dreams, you can do it if you keep trying.
I love flying but as a career its too stressful for me. I realize every career has stress, however this type of stress is different. I respect everyone who loves this career and can do it.
Right now I am working at a company that even if i where to continue in this career I could not work at; even if i need the hours. My parents don't understand i cant fly while in these conditions just for the hours. I understand that its part of the career to pay your dues, fly under stress, fly well not happy. however i see it as unsafe practice, especially in my case. being sad and stressed leads to distracted flying. I don't want it now and i don't want to continue in the career if i am prone to being stressed at this level.
plus a bunch of stuff... i am going crazy but i have been thinking about this for long enough, and my decision to quit/take a break is final. no one is going to convince otherwise, but know people will try.
I think I know what you mean about the stress being different. Other jobs might have a sort of sustained stress, but aviation has these singular stressful events that require you to perform, i.e. checkrides, recurrent, AQP, type rides, line checks, etc. Even aviation interviews feel more binary than in normal jobs. You go from a mostly easy, sometimes boring job to "you must perform or else". And that continues for your entire career.
Your parents probably want you to articulate an explanation, but people don't work that way. You just don't want to do it, and that's fine. Get your head straight though or you won't be able to make a decision. If you're depressed, figure that out, then everything else. Also, don't tie your situation to your happiness. If you aren't at least ok with yourself now, a change isn't going to fix it.
Do you have a degree or just your ratings? Do you like computers? Go to a (good) programming boot camp.