Originally Posted by
Flat408
I am contemplating surrendering all of my certificates and starting over and just having the peace of mind.
Why do you think starting over will wipe the slate clean of your previous failures?
So you would start over completely from zero hours? If not, what do you think when you show up for your checkrides with 1500 hours in your logbook and no explanation?
How about the 8710 form?
Block M. Do You Hold or Have You Ever Held An FAA Pilot Certificate?
IV. HAVE YOU FAILED A PRACTICAL TEST FOR THIS CERTIFICATE OR RATING?
I'd have to agree with AWAX, this might not be the career for you. Not because of your failures or flying, but for your cognitive thinking.