Then you've answered your question.
Get out. You don't really want to do it, you want to fly.
If you join the service, you need to want to serve. That is primary. The flying would just be gravy.
I retired after twenty-one years, and I met many, many good people in the service. They joined for country first, self second. Is that the way you are looking at your priorities?
It's ok if you don't want to serve, that's a very personal choice. It's better not to than to do it for the wrong reasons.