We feel your pain. Many of us here have been thrown out of a race a time or two as well, and in the end the world is not always fair. We win a few and we lose a few, and that's life. The challenge is to see if we can find meaning in the experience. Our nature as human beings is to have a dream, but there are many ways to have a dream and professional piloting is simply one of them. I would continue to purse your appeal. Don't hate yourself for your having wanted something good for yourself. That part they can never take away.