I really appreciate the replies. I should add that I did spend 12 years as an A&P mechanic for a major airline. I do understand airline culture. So at least part of the pilot experience I am familiar with. I guess where I am struggling is whether or not it's worth the hassle of commuting. My business can still provide me income, though at a diminished capacity. Being 42 with 1 kid in college and one on the way, there's no way I could live on the meager 1st year FO salary.