You're FLYING 90+ hours a month?!!!! AND on reserve?
WOW!. You must have no time off for your "girlfriend", or yourself.
BTW, if you are doing all that by "picking up" trips, it might mean your company needs more FOs. By you (and others) NOT picking up excessive OT, you force the company to hire MORE FOs . That means you get to move up in seniority. And if the Capts do the same, that means they need more CPTs, and you get to up grade quiker!!!
Just a thought.