Although I've spent most of my career in the office to earn the precious hours I've flown (OpsO, Maint O X2, Det OIC, XO) I can't quite live with the idea that the next orders might end my flight career. Life in a cubical just doesn't seem cut for me. I bet there are a legion of people out there in the same boat who can't let go of the flying career mirage. Several people have said just give it up, take a 9 to 5 gig, and have a real family life, but it's like giving up an addiction.