ORDCRJ, I think you said you need some words of wisdom. Besides my advice about joining the military, I think you need to be focusing on small victories. It seems you feel your back is against the wall, and you have no where to turn. Maybe feeling like everyone is against you. I need you to think positively and be in touch with family and friends that support and love you. If you have hard feelings with people in life and on here, see if you can repair those relationships and move forward.

There are many joys in life that free or cheap. You need to believe you have some control over your life and you CAN take positive steps to help yourself. Take care of your health. If you let that go, a number of negative things occur, and your mood will be worse.

As far as your money goes, not sure what your personal spending habits are, but writing a budget, then tracking actual spending will go far if you stick to goals. Lots of small expenditures add up.

Don't lose faith in yourself. Be strong. Work hard. Be courteous. Small steps forward. You can turn this around.