i guess i did a poor job of explaining myself. for as much as its worth, i'm VERY mature as compared to my peers on a general and intellectual level. it's just that i have absolutely no motivation to do anything i lack an interest in, and in THAT respect im "immature" (gen ed classes in college/high school/whatever). however for flying, im completely in love, i have been pouring my heart and soul into this stuff. i work 10 hour days for US Air and when i'm not working i'm flying. plus on down time at work i have my head buried in my test prep book. i have every intention on going back to college and getting a degree, just right now i feel like i'm just wasting my time and money because i can't make myself sit down and do the grunt work on something that isn't appealing to me.