Shy... On my commute to/from work I finished up the movie "black hawk down". I can't seem to shake the similarity of "shyguy" on apc and "over watch" in the movie.
What comes to mind (more to the point) is a college guy going to a HS prom. Move on, and then literally move on. Right now you are dragging tail, and your "real' name has made the rounds. Honestly, you are only harming yourself with continued 9E posts. You are ticking off about 2K folks, and most know who you are. Talking negative grows the negative mindset, and the "small network" has close connections.
I know the infant keeps you awake, but research a 529 instead of the pos/neg/POST Hindsight game at this point. If you loved VA, you wouldn't be playing "over watch for 9E".