Hey Anton, I don't have the knowledge or experience under my belt to tell you what you should do but I will say that I was in your shoes not long ago and I was very discouraged with the info I was getting from this website too. I decided to go to college where I could study and decide if a career in aviation was right for me or not. I'm currently a senior at the U.S. Naval Academy studying Aerospace Engineering. In my honest opinion, Aerospace engineering is one of the hardest engineering degrees you can get. Yes, you will take A LOT of calculus and physics. But don't let that scare you. It is very rewarding and you may be good at that kind of stuff. The Naval Academy is a military school, so upon graduation I will hopefully be an officer with orders to flight school (I find out in december). If selected as an aviator, that means all your training is paid for by your commitment to serve roughly 10 yrs. in the military. (Nothing is free!!) If serving your country is something you are open to, I would suggest you look into the military. Message me if you have any questions and good luck