You need to stop and seriously ask yourself why you want to be an airline pilot. If it is to just fly airplanes then find a career that pays well and rent and/or buy when you get the bug. I cannot stress to you enough that an airline job will destroy the love of flying quicker than anything there is. Guys and gals don't care about flying when their lives are slowly dismantling around them. Pay is awful and being away from friends and family, especially on holidays will wreak your life and it will not get better or easier. It is not a good career choice any more.

I am 100% dead serious.