Welcome Boxed Foods- interesting screen name, thinking about tv dinners maybe? You sound like a candidate for an online degree in something besides flying. I would suggest suggest seeing a career counselor about it, and while you are there ask for the Myers Briggs inventory. The Briggs is a non-judgmental test that determines basic personality traits and your career counselor should be able to give you a list of jobs that match with your personality. Money will be an issue, so look for in-state tuition which is much cheaper. Looks like you need to stick with the flying for a while though until your new career plan is hatched. Ideally you could use your advanced flying skill to get a job in airport management or some other extension of pilot experience. Good luck, you are not the first person who found the pot of gold strongly resembles a pot of lemons in many ways. No need to do something you do not like, but you will need to pay your dues for the next career.