Originally Posted by pilotj1

Lol wow! I just wanna thank everyone for there post! The truth is, I was furloughed back in 08' after spending over $100,000 in training and only making about $20,000/yr. That was very depressing to me! Yes, my dream was in a cockpit...but not after that! It's so sad, the amount of hard work and money that goes into living your dream...and the payoff, so low! I was so turned off by what happened to me that I resorted to alcohol. I need up losing everything! My wife, job, family, money etc. I let it take the best of me! So to all of you who understands it's a disease, I thank you! It's something I will have to live with for the rest of my life! To everyone else who thinks it's a joke and who gives a sh*t...than just wait. I was your FO at one time, and someone out there could feel exactly the same as me! It's very depressing, cause I know I will NEVER get into an airline cockpit as long as I live! And I'm sure you have all driven over the limit at one time or another..all it takes is for the lights to come on behind you...and than you'll see your light go out forever pursuing your dream! J