My apologies for coming off arrogant. It must seem as though I think I'm above doing your job (I'm not). The reality for me is that pay here is soul crushing. I've done the very best I can and still can't shake the feeling that maybe I should do something else. I've been lurking on various forums since about 2008 when I started and I try to keep myself grounded and understand that this job won't be all sunshine and roses. The stubborn part of me never gave up the dream after I was $10,000 into a private pilot certificate. I then chose to continue and finish all the way to a commercia/cfi FW license leaving me in the hole for $75,000.

I've already committed this far and I can't help but feel like I should at a bare minimum give the airlines a shot. I realize that there are more lucrative career options but the freedom to travel is what attracts me the most. My family is very spread out all around the country so hopping a jump seat to wherever they are seems awesome. I'm slowly developing a fallback career.