Don't feel bad. There are some of us that have the heavy international requirement and didn't get to proceed as well. Control the things you can and don't worry about the things you can't. I'm not telling you to do this. I'm only saying this helped me get past the anxiety when trying to get hired by the majors years ago. Believe it or not, there were "quota fillers" then just as there are now, albiet a different type.