Hi ATP, glad you are prospering these days and doing well.
We all generate dreams to chase and we run a sort of life long campaign to get what we can from our fantastic ideas. Fate decides what we finally get to take home, and fate by no means bound to any standard of fairness or human morality. The best thing is to retain our pragmatic outlook and at the same time prosecute whatever plan we like while applying common sense about its feasibility and cost. Do not get too worked up about anything that does not pan out in the end and always be philosophical about the whole thing. In the meantime, we can discover a deeper meaning to our life experience and decide whether we get there or not, to be enriched by the experience. In my view the only losing position is where we fail to be enriched along the way because many who actually attain their goals are still empty and bereft.