Baseball,
Why would a 1996 hire at CAL feel like you do about the ISL? Have you spoken with one? As a 1997 UAL hire myself, the closest CAL pilot to my DOH was just over 2000 numbers senior to me on the ISL. I was never furloughed and have spent a total of 3 months of my time here on reserve. I simply have found it easier to move on and accept it. You never will, so just let it gnaw at you forever I suppose.