I'm okay with that. I am not the only one that had a bad time here. I was an enthusiast, once that waned there was no reason to stay. I traded the plane for a train and guess what. Trains provide much better employment and retirement opportunities than all but the very best aviation jobs. I'm just disappointed that I made such a big mistake and having to spend the rest of my career catching up financially. Ive kept up with some former coworkers, none are doing any better than they were fifteen years ago.