must... hold.... back...

As far as the rest goes flying is fun and always will be! Of course you should continue. You started for a reason. Think back to why. Sent a few goals for yourself. Start small and accomplish them one at a time. At some point everyone felt like stopping for a bit. It's natural as it's a big undertaking.

There are very few things that allowed me an "out" in life when things started wearing me down. One was hunting, dove/geese/qail/deer, or fishing for trout. Then I started flying and it's just as enjoyable. The FBO life of flying is great. You meet interesting people and make friends there. Next thing you know you're pulling 6g's in a jet fighter .

After teaching all my students I always found one thing in common. They all started because they has this urge to do it and thought it would be a blast. Then they realize it wasn't. Or at least to them it wasn't. Studying isn't a blast and then you have the stress of landing hard or stalling out. It's not till after you finish with your PPL or even get that area solo in that it all starts coming together then you are allowed to look outside and enjoy the view. Once you get the feel for it and quit having to stare none stop at the altimeter and attitude indicator you find you basically the "National Geographic" style scenery all around you.

Keep in mind there are A LOT of things out there to do in aircraft. You're working on your foundation. If you decide to get your PPL great. When done go get a few lessons in a glider, ride with a bush pilot, hope in an aerobatic plane etc. Meet and greet people with fun aircraft and you'll get rides. I've flown several experimental airplanes that each time revived why I love to fly. I sit reserve and commute in each time and still love what I do. I miss farming and being out in the country more but as I get more and more days off I'm sure I'll find my way back there.

Duck