well id like to say thanks for everyone so far. really good stuff here. few points here . . . .

1) Ive spoken to my relatives and pretty much everyone i know, and they are out of ideas. to clarify a bit, my family is broke, and the relatives are payin all the money to keep us a float. There advice ranges from staying in town and help the family to go out of the country. id much prefer to go to college. thanks for the point though about listenin to the family.

2) Ive researched the military route, and i would do it except i have a real life example why not to do it. When my cousins were going to college, they did the air force rotc, and joined it. the 8 year gig thing. well, the army took them out of air force rotc, and now they are foot soldiers in iraq, on the front not my idea of the air force. i wont get into how i feel about the war.

3) Thank you for the point about ERAU guys taking on 100G in loans. its a good feeling to know that it is possible.

thank you all for your opinoins, i really appreciate them.