Av8tr – good luck with the rest of your training. It sounds to me like you were slightly overwhelmed with your training a few days ago and had a tiny version of a panic attack trying to figure out all the “what iffs" in your life.
Remember, no matter what happens to you – you’ll be fine – you’re not the first person who’s had some problems in training.
Based on your recent posts it sounds to me like things are getting a little better and I’m sure you’ll get through the training just fine. Remember to “chair fly” with your sim partner as much as you can, the more the better. If your sim partner is “busy” or doesn’t want to practice as much as you do, see if there’s someone else in that class who’d be interested in some extra “chair flying?”
Also, before you begin your IOE, try to jumpseat numerous times on your airline so you get to see the flows, the callouts, and the procedures with your own eyes. It’ll help you immensely.
Good luck to you and keep us posted.