A lot of us have been where you guys are right now and understand how you're feeling. April's fool day 2009 was my date... gone for a year and a half. Not terribly long compared to others here. And this was after being on reserve for 5 years so I never was making great money, and had a five and a two year old at the time. Luckily my wife worked and we had a little saved to help me take over a broken down pet grooming business since there was absolutely NO flying jobs to be found. Let me tell ya... going from flying multi-million dollar planes down to washing dog's asses is quite a humbling experience. The point to all this is... somehow you'll find a way to get though it. This will pass and things will improve.