Capotec..I understand exactly what you are saying. As my AF friend, currently furloughed from UA, put it..the love of flying is a curse. Not truely, but it sure is hard to say "no" to showing up to fly that 100 ton hunk on iron, level off and feel the awesomeness of being airborne once again. Also, as my class commander at UPT put it (and this applies so much to life in general), timing is everything and there is no justice. We all have a story; it is amazing that so many aviators with so much dedication to the love of flying continue to commit themselves to an industry as violatile and unforgiving as the US airlines. Wishing all out there a great and blessed Memorial Day..BB