You’re not alone. Many of us have had to make that hard choice. Count it a blessing that you’re in such a situation. Try to enjoy the moment rather than stress it. In the future, you’ll go back and forth over whether your decision was correct. There is no preventing that. In the end, you’ll need to prioritize your wants because the ones that you listed are opposed to one another and won’t all be met at one airline. I’m a quality of life guy and would always prioritize not commuting over upgrade. Others are different. Big congrats on getting to this intersection!