Odd, precious little shocks me anymore. I offer only this..
Those who claim lives of others, on purpose, really ought to believe deeply in that purpose. Because they’ll internally stand trial for its stigma until they die. Killing, obviously, may be quite rational, necessary, justified, defensible. Frequently isn’t but makes no difference. Very little dealing with the baggage is rational at all. Don’t be there unless you’ve exhausted every other possibility.