Hello all. I am posting for the first time because this topic is very real for me right now, and I'd like to throw in my 2 cents. I have been a pilot for 19 years and a 121 FO for nearly a year. What I thought was my dream has turned out very bad for me. Some folks adapt really well. I have become depressed and rarely sleep more than 4 hours a night. Lots to worry about. House payments, commuting, lack of good family time with my wife and son, no clear path to getting where I want to be with this career. Maybe I just started out too late at 35. I reasonably sure that this week, I'm resigning and will try to resume a normal life again.