i know i couldn't do anything but fly. unfortunately i took a job with a regional i knew that i might not like. i blame myself for getting into this position b/c i cannot stand my job right now. for me at this point sitting reserve and flying 15 hours a month is killing me. i used to fly 8 hrs a day 5-6 days a week and now i sit on a couch 24 days a month...i'm more frustrated than i thought i could ever be but every once in awhile i get to do a 2 leg deadhead to fly 40 minutes and it is worth it...it sucks though to have to spend so much time away from the Mrs. and family and friends...it sometimes sad that in order do what we're meant to do we have to sacrefice so much...