After a long day in the middle of a long trip, in the middle of a long month.. I had had enough.I called myself off the trip. I talked to the MOD (mgr on duty) and after 20 questions he said "okay".

But now, that exchange is in the back of my mind and I have pushed thru many a night since then when I should have called in. Not-so-Funny how effective subtle pressure (pilot pushing) can be.

I know the difference between being tired (I seem to be tired a lot lately) and being fatigued. Working when tired is not a new thing. Most of the working world does it daily. I'd like to think I would call in if I was REALLY fatigued.

But at an airline that claims "safety first", in my experience it seems to be more like "safty third"