If you think 2012 is some meal ticket to the airline career you wanted I got a bridge to sell you. To quote my professional formative gospel (Office Space): "thumbs up their @sses, thumbs up their @sses...."

Let's not beat around the bush, you loved the pilot profession, it however did not love you back, as a median. Where you stand in the 5 phases of grief is entirely up to you. Threads like this one reinforce my conviction that life's too short to be putting yours and your family's life on hold for 4-year spans at a time waiting on the next "advertised" window for the next proverbial do-over, that is I believe the textbook definition for the mentally unfit (persistent repetition of the same action with the expectation of a different outcome).