well then the answer to your problem is obvious. If it isn't too late, take the full time LOA or better yet, quit. Go get yourself one of those other ways of making a living and sleep in your own bed each night. Problem solved.

I too am sorry that you made the choice to come to work here. It's not like any "generation" of pilot that has come through the doors here has had a particularly easy time. Your group is no better or worse than those before you in that regard. Yea, I might have it pretty well now, but 18 years ago it was no picnic here. 18 years from now, should you have not committed hari kari in a giant pitty part for yourself, you'll be sitting pretty too and I'll be on a beach somewhere waiving as you fly over.