Mistake
Your thread is so pitiful that I actually created a profile just to laugh in your general direction. I hope I NEVER have to fly with you because I want to live a very long life. You sound suicidal and should seek help immediately! I can't believe UPS even hires pilots that are so deeply touched by depression. Maybe you should take the advice of so many others and do us all a favor and quit!
You are the typical want "somthing for nothing" american and it makes me ill that I once defended your freedoms. GET OVER IT!