Really...we're going to have to set up a Pay Pal account so you can pay us for the psychotherapy that you seem to be seeking from us. If it weren't for what apparently is the fact that you are a genuine line guy (or a management puke that got a password), I'd swear you're Skyhigh, another lost soul who used to stagger around the board bemoaning the futility of a career as a pilot. On and on he went about the abject misery of being him, and he became the messiah of misery trying to bring the rest of us along to quit and go (in his case as I recall) become a realtor in a declining market or some other cubicle monkey. For everybody's sake (and especially your own) please just get out of here and do us the courtesy of allowing us deluded, pathetic lost souls the solitude of complaining about all the things we have little or no control of. But we choose to stay...accept that if you will. You are in complete control of your destiny in so much as you can go work at Home Depot or some other troll-like job where you'll live down to your expectations. Just don't be surprised when, in short order, you become restless and angst ridden yet again, and get fired from Home Depot for leading a rebellion that nobody else wanted to join.

Either way, if you show up on my crew I'll be seriously inclined to have you replaced...as you point out, working for UPS is a big enough challenge as it is without working with a pre-suicidal malcontent.