Respect yourself
In todays and the foreseeable market, becoming a commercial pilot because of your love for flying is akin to becoming a prostitute because you love sex.
If you truly want to fly, take the 45G'$ and buy yourself a plane...you'll respect yourself in the morning.
Large quantities of time, money and effort are spent to get you into the right seat. Just when you get comfortable in that seat, it is yanked from under you. That's because your company just laid you off. (Expect this to happen two or three times before you find a job that sticks). Your now into your career for 10+ years. Each time you start a new job you start at the bottom, that's because seniority defines you. You start over each time making beans, dreaming, hoping, hating to fly...
...Buy that plane if you truly love flying, don't sell your dreams short.