I am not sure what you are trying to say here. Are you trying to hold yourself up as some sort of aviation success story? 11 years in and you still haven't topped 45k? That if tragic. I am sure you would have rather made more, but it amazes me that people in your situation aren't leaving the industry. No offense to you, but if I were in your situation I would have left years ago. It is my duty to my family to give them the best life I can. Pretty hard to do at 45k a year.