been thinking a lot lately, looking at the finances and such involved, and there is some serious doubt going through my head right now as to pursue this career or not... my heart says yes, because this is what i have wanted to do for my entire life, but the smarts tell me not to... too much turbulence, no pun intended, awful family life, and poor finances for the first few years.. however, all of that i am willing to go through, it happens at every job... the other day, i was given a job guarunteeing me 50K a year working 8-4 monday thru friday.. no OT expected from any of the employees and the work is fairly easy... for a 21 year old, 50K is a lot of money... but the passion for flying is still intense and i fly 4-5 times a week as a result... from playing football here, everyone wants to say that UConn's QB flew their plane or whatever, so I log tons and tons of free hours, lots of complex too by the way... however, i am faced with dropping the idea entirely and taking my 50K, or keep going...
secondly, as another resort, thanks to overly wealthy business people i know on the jersey shore, i could start a commuter line, similar to Cape Air, which would fly exclusively from KBLM to Nantucket and the islands up there, and down towards Ocean City, MD and Outer Banks, NC... bunch of guys with too much money want to do this, because they are actually hot destinations from NJ...

really confused right now... advice is welcome