Yes, since you are still dwelling on the images as a "mature man" neglecting the benefits of hindsight and opportunities for personal growth, there must be a latent defect in your personality. The petri dish in your mind has an active culture, and not the kind found in Yoplait.

Now go abuse yourself in a closet like David Carradine and stop facilitating the abuse of little girls by paying $ to see them naked.

And please bid domestic so you too can be processed in the American justice system someday. It's inevitable in cases like yours.