I miss flying a lot. But during these last years away from aviation, many things have become clear. First of all, trying to fly for the airlines today is a waste of time. No matter how talented or smart you are your life and success depends way to heavily on other people that are fickle, selfish, and greedy. Recently I met a young female flight instructor who's hair was literally falling out, i suspect from the stress of the lifestyle. I look at the stress and aggravation that people put themselves through on the fast track to nowhere and I feel sorry for them( yes I was guilty of doing this too, at the expense of friendships and time wasted). I am a success despite the fact that I never got the atp or made jet captain. I am a success despite the fact that I never got through the plate glass wall to the better flying job, along with many others. I will never fly again unless it is for GOOD PEOPLE that I KNOW AND TRUST. My days of trying to play some gimmicky, smoke and mirrors system are over. Leaving too much of our livelihood in the hands of perfect strangers is what you do if you take the "traditional route" to a flying job. Unless I meet the right people to fly for it is ADIOS forever to flying.

[EDIT: remove religion]