Your busts are what they are. There is nothing you can do about it. Nothing wrong with a little venting, either. All I can say is stay positive and if you are as passionate as you say you are, then keep working toward your ultimate goal. There is nothing wrong with still applying at places if and when you meet their minimums. Keep networking and keep your head up. I am not a 121 guy, but some companies outside of the airlines wont even care to know or even care to find out about those busts. If you show you are of good character and you have good skills in the cockpit, there is a job out there somewhere for you. It just might be a little bit more difficult than someone who has a perfect record.