Ok, you admit that you were in control of your career. You made what seemed to be the best move at the time and it didn't work out. You're lucky, or well prepared, to have another career path outside of aviation. I seriously don't understand your obession with this issue.

As I wrote once in a past exchange, I have a very similar story. Maybe I was just too stupid to recognize that the career had me beat, but I stuck it out and now I'm doing quite well.

Are you really doing well at your alternate career? If so, get off the computer and enjoy it. If not, as others have stated, almost every carrier existing today is hiring excepting AMR and AAA, so get back in the game.