The difference between an airplane and a horse is the horse has an innate sense of its own survival; a plane doesn’t. The plane could not care less if you crash and, once airborne, only you can bring it safely back to Earth. As I suggested, read thru the NTSB/FAA accident reports involving turbine-powered, owner-operated airplanes. It’s chilling and EVERYONE one of those pilots thought they were smarter than the “system”; that is, their instruction, their limitations and their aircraft.

You have reached out to professionals engaged in aviation as pilot and asked for advice. The total years flight experience represented here to you easily equates to many lifetimes. When you haven’t received the answers you sought; your response wasn’t humble or thoughtful; it many times was dismissive or insulting. Carry on this way with any reputable instructor or school and you may well be shown the door. Or much worse, your money will ensure a continued audience until the inevitable investigation.

Go out buy some flying time with an instructor, but better be willing to check that ego at the door.

GF