I try to stay as positive as I can, but taking a hard look at all the nights gone, full days gone and holidays missed....9-5 M-F starts to look not so bad. That's 20 days work a month, home every morning and night and holiday. As I'm sitting reserve out of domicile and the age 65 rule is about to pass, I'm looking at significant time away from home for quite a while and then again when captain upgrade comes (10 years from now). With small children at home, it really makes me question this career choice. I'll never be able to get back all the time I miss with my kids. I'm just being honest.