I'm sorry. Sounds miserable.
You keep on doing the same thing and hoping for different results ... we have establidshed that isn't going to happen.
If the dream is the majors ... yeah that dream is over for now.
You need something different - 91, 91K, 135, ACMI ...
Leaving aviation altogether seems unwarranted - the majors strip mining the world has left a lot of opportunities elsewhere. Choose your poison.