Does this job really define your life? There is so much more out there. I was furloughed for 4 1/2 years with a young child and a wife pregnant with triplets. Suffice it to say we survived and prospered. It can be as good or suck as bad as you decide to make it. Good luck and don't look back. Go live your life. If you sit around feeling sorry for yourself and trolling the forums for a nugget of info, a glimmer of hope, you will only disappoint yourself.