You have made yourself extremely non-competitive in the job market you have selected. You display a blatant disregard of the rules and lack of maturity. If you were to get hired & be involved in an incident/accident the lawyers would have a field day with your employer. As the "bosses" at the end of the movie "Casino" debate what to do with the character played by Joe Pesci one says "Why take the chance"? Is the risk of hiring you worth the reward? As long as there are better candidates to select, you will be bypassed. It is all about money & assuming liability. You have shown yourself to be high risk material.